It’s funny how human emotions work. One moment, you are convinced about how you feel...certain, unwavering. And then, slowly, without warning, everything shifts.
I used to think I couldn’t possibly connect with this person. Our energies were so different. Our ways of thinking, our approach to life.. its so distant. I kept my distance, not out of hate, but because I thought, this is not my kind of person. And I was fine with that. Or at least, I thought I was.
But life has this odd way of surprising us. The more I interacted with him, the more I noticed the little things, things I never paid attention to before. The way he laughs, the way he speaks, the way he exists in his own world. And before I knew it, something had changed.
It wasn’t immediate, nor was it dramatic. Just a quiet shift, like the tide coming in. One day, I found myself looking forward to his presence. Then, I started missing him when he wasn't around. And now? Now I can’t stop thinking about him.
How did this happen? How did I go from feeling indifferent to feeling... this? How did I go from wanting distance to craving closeness?
Maybe that’s just the nature of emotions....they are unpredictable, ever-changing. Maybe we don’t always know what we want until we are faced with the possibility of losing it. Or maybe, just maybe, some people are meant to surprise us in ways we never expected.
All I know is, I never saw this coming. And yet, here I am, wishing him to be closer than ever.
